life is great . i like cuties.

yea so i figured i might as well update..... ummm not a lot has happened. actually life has been really cute.  all the money i make from work is going towards my moms car....grr stupid accident  .  umm work is like my life now tho....anything to avoid being home is good.  i suppose poeple want to know whats going on with ross and why we keep fighting.....well he says i dont care and i do.....just apparently not as much as he does.  he wants me there as a friend but im not sure if it would work....too many things get involved.  we're both not the same anymore and i feel like i cant rely on him and never will be able to again. itsss sooo WEIRD how people will just change in front of your eyes. my gosh(haha) "god doesnt put anything in front of us that we cant handle" so i guess this stuff will figure itself out.  im just so disgusted. 

whoever i date next will be ummm how do i say this so it doesnt sound bad.... a step up?  theres always room for improvement they say..... for now im juts gonna have fun anyways.....

surprise surprise......once again ive lost somebody important to me.  well idk what to do. half of me is all like grr they chose rachel over me and if he wants that theres no point in trying and the other half is like maybe he'll miss talking to me so i should try later on.  but i dont think its the second one.  both of us are asses to each other. i swear to god, who knows what i'll do next.